Tag Archives: empowerment

who’s got the power.

Posted on 08/22/2011 by dayna lynn

the liberation process began the moment i became aware of all that i had been repressing under a shroud of fear. Continue reading →

i’m getting there.

Posted on 01/03/2011 by dayna lynn

haiku.
say no without guilt
yes without expectation
this here is freedom

I’ve always been the weirdo in my family. My way of thinking is a like a foreigner in a strange land. For example, I’ve always felt that it was important for me to give freely: to always do for others out of the untainted volition and kindness of my heart. I would run away from anything that even vaguely smelled of a guilt trip or manipulation.

Some think I don’t get “it”; it being their way of thinking or their truth concerning service and giving to others. Always say yes. Particularly to family. Family is all we have. (I personally believe that the nuclear family has destroyed society. But that is another post for another time.) Perhaps its that I don’t feel any loyalty to anyone other than myself. And that means to be the best representation of my Self that … Continue reading →

reflection eternal.

Posted on 12/04/2010 by dayna lynn

I guess December is my best month for writing. I started this blog almost one year ago and had so much to say. The words tapered off and I didn’t write anything for awhile. Until now that is. So, I’m rolling out with another one

In my previous blog, I came to the realization that I am the only person withholding anything from myself. Love, mainly. Defensiveness and fear of intimacy and vulnerability had left me sick, literally, with years of chronic allergy and sinus issues. However, healing is nigh.

I know I can be deep sometimes. It makes it hard for people to understand me. I don’t understand what I say half of the time until months and years later. It happens all the time with my music. My former self writes music for my future self. Yea, see what I mean?

Here’s the deal. Relationships of all kinds, family, friends, lovers, strangers; are all mirrors. And when I connect with someone, I connect because I see my reflection in them. However, the longer I stare into the mirror, I start to forget that its my reflection that I’m looking at. In the beginning of relationships, its so easy to see all the wonderful things about the other person. They are showing me myself. And I look so pretty! I know that when I first start looking in the mirror at myself, its just an opportunity for self admiration. But, the longer I stare the more of my flaws I see. The parts of myself that I don’t like become bigger than the parts that I love. I squirm and get uncomfortable and don’t want to look any more. I start to blame it on the mirror and the light and what I ate that day… Continue reading →

its everyone else…and by everyone else, i mean me.

Posted on 11/30/2010 by dayna lynn

Ok. I’m back. I didn’t say what I really needed to say yesterday.
Here goes…

I’ve been fighting for a very long time. Well, the entire time, really. At first, I though I was just defending myself. You know, the world is a mean and crazy place. I was adopted, given up a birth, ripped from mother’s womb without so much as a warm hand or arm to nuzzle against. So, gotta fend for myself. Its me against the world. All kinds of bull-doo-doo I’ve said to myself to justify my behavior. But fundamentally, all of the attacks that I perceive or “say” are coming from the outside have their origins internally.

Say what?!

Yea. Its true. I’m fighting myself. Attacking myself. I’ll get to the metaphysical implications later. But, in a nutshell…I don’t like me… Continue reading →

healing.

Posted on 10/05/2010 by dayna lynn

Again, I find myself ravenous, hungering for expansion. I’ve been reading, or rather watching videos, of Ekhart Tolle (Author of The Power of Now and A New Earth). The part of his teachings that resonate most with me is the … Continue reading →