Tag Archives: The Call

reflection eternal.

Posted on 12/04/2010 by dayna lynn

I guess December is my best month for writing. I started this blog almost one year ago and had so much to say. The words tapered off and I didn’t write anything for awhile. Until now that is. So, I’m rolling out with another one

In my previous blog, I came to the realization that I am the only person withholding anything from myself. Love, mainly. Defensiveness and fear of intimacy and vulnerability had left me sick, literally, with years of chronic allergy and sinus issues. However, healing is nigh.

I know I can be deep sometimes. It makes it hard for people to understand me. I don’t understand what I say half of the time until months and years later. It happens all the time with my music. My former self writes music for my future self. Yea, see what I mean?

Here’s the deal. Relationships of all kinds, family, friends, lovers, strangers; are all mirrors. And when I connect with someone, I connect because I see my reflection in them. However, the longer I stare into the mirror, I start to forget that its my reflection that I’m looking at. In the beginning of relationships, its so easy to see all the wonderful things about the other person. They are showing me myself. And I look so pretty! I know that when I first start looking in the mirror at myself, its just an opportunity for self admiration. But, the longer I stare the more of my flaws I see. The parts of myself that I don’t like become bigger than the parts that I love. I squirm and get uncomfortable and don’t want to look any more. I start to blame it on the mirror and the light and what I ate that day… Continue reading →

walk the talk.

Posted on 11/29/2010 by dayna lynn

I’ve reached another precipice. I have received so much revelation and understanding concerning my past and my emotional and behavioral patterns. I’ve had a lot to say. A lot to think. A lot of advice for other people. And now? Now I’ve reached the place where I am challenged to BE, not just say, do or understand.

It feels like the ultimate challenge. And everyone around me is in on it. What’s the conspiracy here… Continue reading →

deconstruct. rebuild. repeat. [part two: i'm ALWAYS right]

Posted on 09/14/2010 by dayna lynn

I HATE for people to try and tell me what I need to/should/ought to do. Since I was a child my father has called me a contrarian. The surest way to get me NOT to do something is to suggest or tell me to do it. I take autonomy seriously. I’m my own boss!

This turns into “I’m ALWAYS right.” Always. I am not comfortable with this. Why must I always be right? Whenever someone tries to tell me something, this feeling rises up in me. This angst and stress. I don’t like it. I want to change. Continue reading →

deconstruct. rebuild. repeat. [part one: music]

Posted on 09/07/2010 by dayna lynn

Belief System:
1. The spoken and unspoken rules one creates for one’s personal experience of reality/personal reality.
2. The framework within which one is experiences reality.

i want to live and flourish off of my music. financially and joyfully. what the heezy is holding me back? i think i wrote the answer to this question in a song. “its only you holding you back from you…” its me, my belief system…these rules that i made up for my life. my beliefs about life and how things work just don’t fit anymore. its time for some serious deconstruction. keep what works and get rid of the rest. create anew. Continue reading →

i’m answering The Call. are you?

Posted on 09/02/2010 by dayna lynn

“I just pray each day to make a way for those who find it hard to live./What can I give?/Show me how to give my all so I can answer this urgent call./This is my prayer.” -’The Call’

These are lyrics from the title track of my album (The Call) I finished recording earlier this year. I wrote the song in 2005. It was inspired by the crisis in Darfur, Sudan, but it has come to represent so much more for me. ‘The Call’ is a musical beckoning to act on the compassion and benevolence that we feel for others by healing, evolving and becoming self-empowered. Continue reading →